The first breaking point actually is the situation almost everyone experiences when coming across the spiritual knowledge for the very first time: feeling oneself ‘special and distinguished’. That very feeling messes up everything. In fact this is nothing but a typical ‘identity acquisition’, only it is a little difficult to notice this along a very effective, biased and entrapped way like spiritualism. As you know, spiritualism is not a way quite gone and returned or investigated, nevertheless a system transformed of some sort in which someone inspecting carefully can easily catch familiar elements.

There are such information and motives in spiritual books that, even written with positive intentions, they are very convenient to cause misunderstandings or experiences just the opposite of what they had intended. Especially if the implied points are about matters full of unknowns like inquiring someone’s identity in the world and the universe. Manhood, from the time he knows himself, asked himself the question ‘what am I seeking in this world?’ and developed systems and civilizations according to the subjective answers he gave to this question. (For example, lies beneath the fundamental of the huge philosophy history, the two-word question of ‘who am I?’). A satisfactory answer was never obtained but progress was made by dealing with this continuously. However a deficiency of no answers, a state of incompleteness exists in the mutual genes of man. Now let’s put this in our pocket.

Let’s come to the present world. Today’s man is such absorbed in and adapted himself to the dense rush of living that, it doesn’t occur to him much to raise his head sometimes and ask as ‘what am i doing? Where am I heading?’ When it occurs, upon getting some sort of warning like ‘for God’s sake look what you’re thinking, don’t be ridiculous.’ from someone who saw him raising his head, he proceeds from where he had left, or get scared of the answerlessness and the emptiness and prefers not to raise his head anyway. At this point, let’s add the emptiness created by the process of daily course of life to our pockets, but still it doesn’t finish yet. Let’s put here many large and small factors also; there almost formed a small scaled black hole in our pocket. Well what will the man going to do with this hole in the pocket of his soul? Isn’t the state of soul like some sort of man who happened to be hungry in a desert for days long?

Of course the situation is not that hopeless actually. There are people who know very well where he is and what he is doing during the flow and they raised their heads previously and then giving the ‘I am living through the life. We will learn somehow if there is more’ reply, they are the ones leaving themselves to the flow. Some also raise their heads and keep looking, although scared, and they show the courage to ask ‘who am I?’ At this very moment there begins to arrive many answers suddenly to them, because the universe is like a hard disk expanding constantly and it accommodates all the answers given previously by the common consciousness of man. So because the people would draw themselves the answers most fitting to them, there come choices suitable to them. Some of these are fine for the person, some are not. In the end, he is left alone with the favorable ones and starts to fill the emptiness inside with them...

There are numerous answers that include different opinions and points of view in the universe. I can’t mention all of them here naturally, but when looked into their essentials some answers are very clear and close-ended (ex. you are the son of your mother and will do as she says), whereas some have open ends and may go wherever you pull them to (ex. you are ‘The One’). The danger of spiritual knowledge shows itself right at this point. Answers are very open-ended and available to go where you pull them to. Besides they are such full of positivism that, upon loading on this much suddenly those experiencing many negativities nearly lose their balances. With getting ‘you are special’ messages also, this turns into a parvenu at once. Unfortunately almost everyone coming across spiritual knowledge newly experience this. Our state resembles one’s; left hungry and thirsty in a desert for days, falling upon a feast table and we instantly attack and begin to eat. It is impossible to hear warnings like ‘eat slowly, or you’ll choke’ because our perception threshold is at an unperceiving level. Furthermore when seeing the material abundant, we immediately want others also to eat and try to make passersby sit at the table. But people look at us startled. Meanwhile the person thinks being at that table is a special case and the reason he is invited there is because he is special too (however the table is out in the open and there are many passersby, they will see it also if they perceive but it doesn’t draw their attention yet or may be they don’t feel hungry).
 

After some time, when the first attack to the meal is over and we retreat to our corners, begins moments of pleasure and sweet itching. We smile happily and talk about how good the meal was, how proud we are to be at this table, that we feel ourselves special here, the taste of the meal. Then we invite passersby almost by force, yet at that moment with the happiness of being full, it isn’t worked out much that if they intend to eat they will sit anyway. Moreover we try to make them sit at the table by pulling, but on the contrary they react to us and we look confused to those reactions. Meanwhile people sitting around the table and seem experienced smiles meaningfully.

Now at this point two feelings come across us. First is person’s need to be approved. We are creatures constructing ourselves mainly with the approvals coming from the people around and it is not quite easy actually to construct oneself with self-approval. We, when coming across spiritual knowledge, by describing these to the people around or waiting them to understand expect ‘to be approved’ basically. For the reasons I tried to explain with the example above, when approvals do not come we feel offended and get withdrawn or we look for the ones like us but withdraw ourselves with them together this time. We retreat to our corners actually even when we don’t appear to do so. Then we communicate with ones like us making an effort to satisfy this ‘disapproved’ feeling reciprocally. I don’t talk here about groups getting along well together really, there are of course very balanced groups dealing with spiritual matters. Don’t misunderstand, examples I give are the atmospheres in which conversations like ‘you can try to explain them as much as you want, they don’t get it anyway, their vibrations, consciousness is not enough for that’ occur. In reality the most intense emotion in these environments according to me is offense resulted from the feeling of ‘excluded from the society’ brought by ‘disapproval’. This offense turns the balance of the person upside-down and drives him to different psychological attitudes. These appear in ways of either seeing himself superior to the society and thinking ‘they can’t understand, I am special I can’ or considering himself as sick in respect of the society and being afraid of getting cracked. This second group generally avoid everything or go to a psychologist or hide themselves thoroughly (it is the subject of a separate article). But the first group walk around proudly and try to emphasize ‘yes we are special’ under ‘oh my dear, us?’ cover.

Now you will say what the things I explained so far has got to do with 2012. When I first met with spiritual knowledge, which was the year of 1995, there was a talk about ‘harvest’ in that period. According to that time’s knowledge in the years we now live there would be a big ‘harvest’ and those whose level of consciousness isn’t suitable would be picked out which meant passing away of 9 people out of every 10 according to that period’s data. Many people, including me, were believing we would be ‘saved’ from the ‘harvest’ by means of ‘increasing of consciousness due to reading spiritual books’(!). I am particularly stating ‘being saved’ because aliens would come and get us and then bring back again to the world after everything was finished so we can establish the new world order, because we would be having the knowledge and had made the progress of consciousness. Then something has changed and at first there began to come messages like ‘man shall not hope anybody to come to save him because we won’t be coming until you put the world in order’ from various channels. Then we saw no ‘harvest’ or any other thing in sight. Of course lots of changes have began to be experienced in the world and lots of events have happened in general and still happening, yet no such events that require people to retreat to the mountains and form new colonies have happened.

After some time when this wind had passed, the emptiness of ‘harvest’ began to be filled with the year of 2012. But the approach was different this time. As how much disastrous the ‘harvest’ was, the date 2012 was that much promising a bed of roses. Man would wake up some morning to find all the consciousness opened and enlightened at once, the world would be taking steps towards heaven. Then from time to time some intermediate dates like 2004, 2008 etc. were begun to be given. After some time, serious studies has began to be made and to have place in the media about the date of 2012 and in these studies it was mentioned that everything wouldn’t be a bed of roses, on the contrary roses are full of thorns also. One way or other, we have a 2012 date in our hands from now on (For the subject isn’t 2012, let me express my opinion shortly at this point. I have no criticism regarding the belief that this date is special. On the contrary I believe 2012 will be a distinctive year and also we will live through many changes. Anyway it would be a mistake not to see that those changes have begun already. I when saying people of 2012 want to draw attention to some other attitude). Among various groups an expectation likewise felt in ‘harvest’ is present also connected with this date, in fact more widespread this time. Spiritual knowledge is more popular and well-known now, consequently there is a serious increase in the number of people feeling ‘special and selected’ which means many more burden from the savers’ perspective :) Joking apart, although spreading of spiritual knowledge to this extent has positive respects, negative sides ara also present that the aim of writing this article is to emphasize this negativeness anyway.

My friends, knowing chakras, seeing auras, making astral journeys, reading serials of Mr. X, seeing many vivid illuminated things in dreams at nights, dealing closely with spiritual knowledge do not make people ‘super conscious’ or ‘special’ or ‘selected’! On the contrary, there is being ‘ONE’, becoming a united whole in the essence of spiritual knowledge. There is no purpose to create any elitism. Besides it is not the amount of your reading that determines your level of spiritual consciousness, it is your ability to transfer that knowledge into your life and experience it; it is about whether you live according to humane merits, how much you look as you are or be as you look.  It is about whether you made your mind and heart as one and create your own existence. You may say sentences like ‘I am light’ as much as you want; your light is only as much as you can reflect from your soul to the one across you. It is the situation meant in Koran when said ‘He knows what is in your heart’. The universe doesn’t heed what you say; it looks into your heart and flows accordingly. Because of this, no matter how much you struggle, whatever in your heart will find you eventually?

At this point, I want to mention the second feeling felt after the meal: throwing up what you ate. Being hungry for a very long time and overeating afterwards will cause a person to upset his stomach and throw up sooner or later. At that moment the person experiences a big shock. Because all the things he thought he had possessed were all over the floor; all the meals he was proud of and had boasted were in the form of puke now. All the delicious flavors he had exaggerated fled away leaving a bad taste in his throat. We can compare this situation as the ones’ trying to share what they had read with other people with a ‘copy and paste’ method. These people badger others with enthusiasm and try to explain to them. Different from the things I had explained in the above paragraphs, this time another factor interferes and causes these people to fail: he ate such quickly and with appetite that he didn’t understand what it was really and didn’t have a clue about its taste. Yes he is feeling something a little, but doesn’t know the taste of what he had ate really; only he thinks he knows with that enthusiasm and keeps telling. But in the end he flunks in attempting to explain what he doesn’t know also (These failures will upset him more). Then upon this, he gets shocked when he throws up and gets disappointed hugely. This curve is actually a ‘welcome trap’ where most returns back or breaks off. This is a big opportunity for a transition to a new phase as well...

We all attacked that table with the inexperience of eating for the first time and stuffed our stomach with whatever we saw on it. Then we encountered the situations we summarized above. After we threw up all we had eaten, we slowly started to understand why the people sitting around the table watched our eating with a smile on their faces... After we overcame the shock of throwing up, someone sitting nearby called out to us:
 

‘Pull yourself together and then eat again. As you see the things on the table never run out and will never also. But the weak spot is to eat slowly and to digest. I know you don’t want to eat right now, but after eating and digesting when you feel ready, you will feel that you are full. At that time come and sit near to us and let’s have a chat together and approve life and ourselves also.

We will see what will happen in 2012 altogether, but I personally believe a new world order will arise at some date or other. This new world order will be a one created by man’s making his mind and heart as one and in which love, science, wisdom, spiritual beauties, global peace will be enjoyed in my opinion. However it is out of question for us to wait for the help of someone’s from the skies in order for this to come true. We all have duties falling upon us, of which obtaining inner calmness, peace and happiness are the leading ones, that how much people take place around that ‘table’ feeling ‘full’, this change will take place that much successfully (Of course being ‘full’ is the first step only, the full ones should stand up and begin the activities, but that is the subject of another article). All we need is to learn eating calmly and enjoying fully, knowing what we require. To realize this, we have a wonderful ‘means’ present: our intelligence...