Let’s leave it as a topic for another essay, because it will get longer and longer. What I really want to do is to think loudly about my own answer to the question “who am i?” and to share it with you, starting with most popular answers of people who deal with new age trends. I wanted to take the new age answers as the basis, because, for many years, I thought they were my own answers too.
 

I have a diary from 1995 and I reserved it for my own essay collection, but I left it unwritten as I don’t have the habit of taking notes. One day, I found it by chance and saw the thing I had written as an intro: “To High Me Who Created Me and is Me”. They’d say wooow! And some would cheer saying “See the boy’s awareness at that age!”. I should confess that I had no idea about what I meant to write. Since I used to spent nearly all my day occupied with spiritual knowledge, I was influenced by that culture and I was scribbling around such words.
 

Look at that: “To High Me Who Created Me and is Me”. I ask myself: “How many times have you felt the energy of these words all through these years?”. Perhaps, it’s impossible for me to feel that in fact, as there is a problem with the structure of sentence; there is a differentiation between “Me and Him” though they’re thought to be the same. Consequently, those lines consist of naive memories that make me smile, as I haven’t understood those words neither I have felt them.
 

Likewise, in all these years I met many people answering variously the question “Who Are You?”.  The most absurds are the ones who hug each other with dreamy looks, saying “I’m That. I’m The High Creator’s Light. I am One...” Because the other day I see the same guys with Prozac boxes they took from their psychiatrists, or moreover while gossiping about each other. This is why such expressions always seem to me as artificial. The direct reflex reaction; since you know you’re spiritualist, since you know those books tell us we are “Thar”, since there is a book with this title... ;
 

- Who Are You?

- I am That!.

- So, Who is That?

(first an oooops, and then suddenly) – The Maker, the Creator, light, the God.

Really? Is it possible that you even don’t see what you say? I only see a human with flesh and blood and if you don’t mind I’d say that you don’t look like God at all. (Here I should emphasize that these answers includes deep and very expressive meanings. However, it looks like a butterfly on a horse’s back when they’re said by someone who uses the copy paste method. Because, in this case, there are only the words but not their energy.)

Furthermore, some spiritual identities are getting trendy periodically and everybody runs to get one. As soon as one of them is mentionned in a channel information, you can see a plenty of them around. Just before the year 2000, the “light workers” were trendy. Then, the Indigos appeared and very soon every 2 of 3 people realized that they are Indigo. As soon, Shaumbra appeared and is still a popular identity. Nowadays, the Chrystal kids are in. I easily predict that channels will soon inform us about Ruby Kids and Diamond kids, thus we will complete our stone collection. J We’ll be surrounded by rubies and diamonds. An aunty of 40 years who used to jump around just two years ago and say “I am an Indigo, moreover one of the first ones”, will soon say “Lady Blabla has a wide open third eye. She examined me and found out that I was a diamond in fact!”. Then, human energies represented by Pegasus the horse with wings will be soon here and I hope we’ll be wise enough to see that those are only symbols to facilitate the expression, not for us to put on our namecards.
 

First of all, we are men living on this earth my friends. For example, I am Hasan Celiktas and though I read a lot, though I exposed many identities by copy paste, though I used to roam around with this “I am the One”, though I challenged many discussions on “We are the God”, etc, the only “real” feeling I’ve ever felt is: I am Hasan Celiktas. I’m not a lightworker, neither an indigo, neither a chrystal, neither a jade nor ruby, neither a diamond, neither shaumbra, neither the master of light, neither the god, neither The One. I am Hasan Celiktas and the only truth I feel and try to live is this.

Don’t even think that those answers are false, neither I refuse them. We are really precious and high creatures essentially (though is there any creature which is not?), but if we came to this world, we should live this world. Unfortunately, we use this identities as tools for escaping since we are not happy about our lives and this world. As we can’t succeed to change the world and ourselves, we change our identities immediately and therefore  you can see a plenty of MEN trying to become “angel” or “light worker”, etc. I wrote MEN especially in majors. Because, if we are on earth, the major truth we have is this!!! We may be the highness, this One, that One, etc. Anyway, if what is said is true, after death we’ll experience these stuff for forever. After all this way to come to the earth to experience the world, dedicate all your life to “become high”! Wouldn’t they ask you (they’ve already asked) “After death, you will join all you once left behind. Since you were so devoted to all of that, why did you leave them to come to this planet?”
 

“I am That” is a real strong answer, even though it’s not as strong as “I am who i am”. But, the way to feel this or that answer never passes through copying and pasting them around, nor using them as a signature in some email groups. The way to reach these answers passes through welcoming the reality that exists and living it. The real Being is this... Me, I have one reality:

“I am a man who lives on planet earth, I am Hasan Celiktas”.

What about your reality?